Well I figured I would use my own blog on here to post about my photography as some of you asked if I would.
As many of you know I have been delving into photography as I was inspired by the charity NILMDTS. In hopes one day I would be professional enough to capture memories for grieving familes and offer my service.
Well my journey has been slow going. I have delved into learning, I have book that college courses use for the subject. I have watched videos, I have read, I have practiced. But as you know I have never delved into it super deep, meaning as a career. I figured one day when Brian retired and we didnt focus on his career then maybe just maybe..
After all we had all the time in the world, right? I have been a home mom, pretty much almost our entire almost 23 year marriage. I had Justen at 17, married Brian when I was 19. Worked some in the beggining but due to abuse of baby sitter we decided together that we felt better if we never put our children through what we went through. So we made that choice. Which I do not regret.
However Brian passed away. I had no career, no job experiance (but my early 20s, I am now in my 40s), the thought of doing everything we dreamed of together alone became a nightmare, fear like no other, worry and more fear. Luckily my husband had life insurance (we both did, after all we have kids), something I used to tell him I hated him having because we never would need it and the thought of him passing wasnt something I ever wanted to think about.
I was able to pay off house, put money back. I now realize that it was time to go ahead and take my photography more serious. So I joined a 12 week course. Though I admit I am scared. I need to do this for me, and for our kids. I want them to know that no matter what trials we face, we can do this. We can survive this. I am all they have now. And its hard folks, it really is. There are times I feel like I am failing them and doing this alone makes my heart sink so deeply in hurt.
How I miss my husband so badly it hurts to my core.
Do you know that in all the years together we never had a professional family picture done? How I regret thst now.
My mission is to make sure that never happens to anyone I come across. One can never get that back. I habe no real good pictures to hang on my walls of all of us. I encourage you all to go get pictures taken!!
Also to print your phone pictures. Go to mpix.com have them print your pictures. They have an app. Do it. Save them!
Anyway sorry about rambling in this post..
I will start posting more about photography. But for now thank you for reading this.